It's Late..

Another Friday night and I am still awake.
I am sure I have written before about how my usual Friday night goes. I go to work at 5 and don't get home until 11:30....11 on some lucky nights. I seem to hit a little boost of energy that helps me get through my last hour at work but the unfortunate part of it all is that I bring it home with me. Brett is exhausted from waking up early and going to work and then coming home to baby all night, so I usually can't get him for more than half an hour after I get home. lol
I also work Saturday mornings so I have to be at work by 9am. Friday nights have turned out to be the worst. I don't know what happens to my mind but I can never get to sleep for quite a few hours and then I feel like I am waking up as soon as I close my eyes. It is like My mind knows what a long day tomorrow is going to be so it doesn't want me to go to sleep because I will just have to wake up and face the day. It thinks that maybe if I don't go to bed, I won't have to have a tomorrow! haha!
So my Friday late nights have usually consisted of a horrible midnight snack, catching up with TiVo, blogging, and facebook. lol.
On another note, I feel like I have been such a negative person lately!! I complain about everything and seem to find fault with everyone no matter what! I am such a downer!! Why though? I have been so blessed in my life. A wonderful husband. A beautiful daughter. A good job. An education. Wonderful parents. I just get so frustrated with such small things, mostly the people I work with. Poor Brett gets the brunt of it sometimes too, but is still too good to me. I am going to try and not say anything negative about anything or anyone all weekend.... As sad as it sounds this might be a harder thing than I think. I need to work on keeping things to myself.....especially my gossiping. Maybe if I don't say it, eventually my thoughts will change with it too and I won't even think it!! Wish me luck!! I can do this right????