Work

Work has been crazy lately. I find myself in a little bit of a struggle with power issues with some of the people I work with. Although I do not have the official title of "sales manager" I am given a lot of the same duties and I am always supposed to correct and observe. When I am not there, I feel like the work doesn't get done right and when I am there, people do what I say, but still mutter about me under their breath. I was talking to another manager friend of mine who tells me it comes with the territory. Someone is always going to hate me and workers hate it when they are caught doing something wrong. No one likes to be in trouble and I am going to have to be a bad guy and deliver it sometimes. It is so easy not to care, but I get so frustrated when my team doesn't.
They want me to go to Manager training school and become a store manager for reals. I was way grateful... but I don't think it is what I really want to do. It is pretty intense long hours. They want a 5 year commitment. One week vacation the first three years. Only Christmas and Thanksgiving day off. They would be sending my to Florida for a while for about 4 weeks of school. Pay is so nice...
I have to admit, looking back on my life I never thought I would have anything to do with a business career. I am so flattered they think of me in that way and love my work ethic, but I just don't know. Always working and being away from my kids is something I do not want to do. I don't have the heart to tell them now, but I don't even plan on being there much longer anyways. With Brett starting Podiatry school soon, he will be gone a lot lot more and it will be impossible for either of us to work....especially the first two or three years. I am trying to prepare myself for being undoubtedly poorer than dirt, but its not going so well. haha
Anywho, I mostly write these blogging post for my own peace of mind, but I thought you would like a little glimpse into what life is like lately here at the Sorensen house. I love working, but I am torn between it and my kids. They are and always will be first. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being a stay at home mom and I think thats just what I want to be.