Its been a long time my friend...

I know, its been a while. And for those two or three people that still might check out my blog from time to time i apologize...I have been very selfish with my time and efforts elsewhere. You see, my hubby has been getting ready to leave us for a bit on his clinic rotation for his 4th yr in the DPM program at Des Moines University. So, sitting in front of a computer screen has not been my top priority.

Brett left this past Sunday, early in the a.m. for Phoenix AZ. We all got up to say our goodbyes, and i tried really really hard to hold back the tears and did pretty ok, Until he had to turn around because he forgot something and we all had to say goodbye again. We LOST it....well mostly me, but tears were very much shed. I am pretty sure I have cried every night since he has left. I do not know how other people do it. I mean, I am a huge cry baby and super dependent and madly in love with my husband and him being away is killin me. So i will go through my "woe is me" stage for a good week or two and hopefully get better at not feeling sorry for myself. Kudos to those of you who can do it. I know I am not sending him to the front lines or even out of this country or in harms way - but I am still going to miss my husband terribly. It's just been us for so long - no family too near since we met and married. He has become my absolute best Friend and confidant. The longest we have ever been apart before this is about 3, maybe 4 days - so please excuse my whining for not getting to see him for the next 5 mths. I get it - there are worse thing in this world and you may have more to complain about than me or you might want to scream at me to "get over it", to you I say - to each their own and its my party I will cry if i want to.

Adalie has been very sweet in lettin me know that everything will be ok. She misses him very much, but she really is one strong and sweet little girl. I think she knows how much her daddy and I love each other, and how much he loves his kiddos, and reassures me quite often that we can do it. She said to me the other day while cuddling with me "mommy maybe it will be a good thing that daddy is gone. we can get closer and spend a lot of girl time together - and i get to sleep in your bed with you!" I have an extremely hard time sleeping alone so I told her she could sleep in daddy's spot while he was gone. She is very excited about this. It will be interesting as she is quite the bed hog and cover stealer - a lot like her daddy i suppose so maybe it wont be too hard to get used to =)

Cason I am sure doesn't quite get it. He has made it into my bed every night sense Brett has gone and expects to see Brett there and is highly disappointed he is not. He gets into bed with me and snuggles up and has asked the same question all three night "Daddy sleeps in Arizona?" Yes bubba, daddy is sleeping in Arizona. He is one big daddy's boy and I think he is going to have the hardest time with him gone.

Brody of course is oblivious. What 16 mth old wouldn't be? But he gets super excited to hear Brett on the phone or see his picture. He gets a big smile on his face and says "Daddy!" So, I know in his own little 1 yr old mind he misses him too.

So- This is to be my pity party post. Woe is me and everyone should feel sorry for me for a moment. Shed a tear or two for me. I am entitled to complain for a moment or two -- so let me.

I will post about happier things tomorrow