Just me Talking to myself

I am not sure if I have mentioned it yet but with this pregnancy I have taken full advantage of my cravings. No chocolate, chip, fried food, or taco is safe within a two minute walk or 5 minute drive. With Adalie I gained a total of 15 lbs from start to finish. I never got very big and Adalie was a whopping 5 lbs to prove that point. ( I was also very sick...not on purpose) This time it is a different story. I have already started out at the weight I was on LABOR day with Adalie..... Ugh. I have only gained 5 lbs in 4 1/2 mths, so thats good news but if I keep going the way I am going I am sure to doom myself. But, who cares right?? If i want to, who says I can't gain 40 lbs?? haha I already feel like this baby is going to be bigger. He is right on track with everything while Adalie was always a week or two off. Do you get bigger with boys? Bigger with each pregnancy? Brett is so sweet to love me chunky and round. He always makes me feel good no matter how I complain about how fat I look...which is what every ridiculous girl does I know. I am not even big, not nearly as big as I have been in the past and I really need t learn to just buckle down, be healthy, and love my body no matter what =)

Brett being awat this weekend doesn't help though. My house is freshly stocked with donuts, chocolate, chips, soda, and lots of other comfort food to get me through the weekend without him. I really am a pathetic sight when he is gone. Its pretty sad stuff. Plus I am pregnant and anything just about does me in emotionally. We got a fun surprise when he called us just before bedtime. He drove down the mountain until he got a signal to tell me he missed me and loved me and has been thinking about me. Awww you know mushy stuff lol. I love it. So sweet.

Anywho, Adalie is my bed partner for the weekend and will be bunking in Daddy's spot until Monday. I miss you honey, come home soon and come home safe!!