The Last of Another Adventure

Today is the Last day of finals and I am pretty sure Brett is beyond excited. No more test, or homework, or readings, or projects for at least 3 or 4 mths until POD school. It will be nice for him to go to sleep at night not stressing over school work for a bit. Tomorrow is graduation part 1 (commencement) and Friday he actually gets to walk and get his diploma. I am SO proud of him! He has always been so smart and so motivated and now he has something to show for it! =) He has been a trooper these last four yrs with BYU and I know he is so ready for something new and exciting. Me? I cannot believe it has been four yrs. Time has really gone by so fast although I am sure in the moment, I did not think so at all. I really have loved BYU. What a huge blessing to be able to have a wonderful school like this. Go Cougars!! Now we have to get ready for the next chapter, but not forget to enjoy the moments in between.

On another note, family is going to be in town this week and I am so so thrilled beyond belief! Cason will be blessed on Sunday. This is the first time my mom and dad and Brett's dad and brother get to meet Baby Cason. So, if you don't hear from me for a while yet again (I've been busy getting ready for family at the house and enjoying the sunshine), you know where I am. I have lots to post though and one day I hope to catch up with life.

Too Old?

Am I too old to have purple hair?
Am I too old to have hot pink nails?

Because I have both and I love it...hehe. I wish I had a camera to show you!! I will post one soon. I left it at my sister in laws =(

Get Up and Go!!

So what did I FINALLY do?? I actually went to the gym yesterday! That's right...after 7 wks of lazy I decided to do something about how chubby and out of shape I am. Now just to keep it going right?

And by the way, I just want to say thank you thank you thank you everyone for your kind words, your advice, and your thoughts =) It has made me feel so much better to have little words of encouragement about how things have been going. I really do feel a lot better about the situation. I don't want to jinx anything, but he has actually been sleeping almost 3 hrs at a time now and he smiles all the time. I know that sounds ridiculous to be grateful for, but I will take whatever I can get!! I am loving it right now! I am so glad for my wonderful husband too! He has been the biggest help of all....I love you lots honey.

Letting it Out

I feel like life has been a blur these past few months. I have been so delirious and sleep deprived from the acid reflux and colic that I haven't had much time to enjoy a lot of things about my newborn. I love that he is here, I love that we have a little boy. I love that he has come to join our little family. I know he is a sweet little spirit I have been in trusted with, but it has been hard for me this time around. I am finally having to admit to myself I can't do it with a smile all the time. I really really don't mean to have a pitty party or say woe is me, but i just feel like i need to let it out or I will explode one of these days. I know so many people have much bigger problems than I and I feel so ridiculous that I am complaining about it! My poor husband who has been bearing the brunt of it all... I am having a hard time adjusting to just how different it all has been. Is this a normal feeling among most? I hate it when my babies cry and there is nothing I can do to console them...it makes me feel like a bad mom that I can't do anything more than what I have already done. Of course I am writing at a particularly bad moment...

I am glad I have a pretty easy toddler though...that helps a lot with the stress I am feeling now. Someone please tell me it gets better. Haha. Does everyone have those days where they feel like a bad mom? Like you just don't know how to do it right? I don't know if this is what postpartum feels like and I should get on some meds fast or if it is just the lack of sleep that makes it seem harder and depressing sometimes. And it has only been in the last two weeks I have felt like this....so it hasn't even been around the whole time really. Anywho, don't judge or think I am ungrateful (....believe it or not lol), I am. I have so so much to be grateful for....it is just hard to remember that in the stressful moments of life. Sorry y'all.... I just needed to let it out. Someone slap me already and tell me to get happy!!

Double Doses

....both Colic and Acid Reflux. Poor baby!! I hate that I waited so long to get him to the Doctor again just to find out he really has been hurting quite a bit. Brett and I have been running off of no sleep for the past 3 wks and have pretty much been dead to the world. We got a prescription for Cason yesterday (baby prevacid) and the Dr said that should really help, so we are excited to see how the next few days, especially nights, go around here. Good news is Dr says the colic usually is gone by their 4 mth check up....which means 2 more months to go there. The reflux though will be around for a year, sometimes off and on so he will have to keep taking the medicine for a while. Whatever helps though. We will keep you posted. Gotta go! Crying baby!!

Adalie is still winning in the "easiest child so far" contest we are having here at the house. =)

Easter Pictures

We went to JC Pennys yesterday to get a few cute pictures of the little baboos in their Easter outfits. I really don't like taking newborn pictures for 3 main reasons... 1. They really aren't that cute yet and they still need to get out of the newborn old man look wrinkly stage (only a face a mother can love right? LoL) so it's something I don't want to catch professionally on camera and 2. I have a very fussy baby boy. 3. It is really hard to even catch them with their eyes open and with a smile on their face! Anywho! Enjoy! These are a few I like. We will be back in May to take family pictures so I hope to get a few good ones then too...