Looking Up

I want this baby to be healthy and happy. I want to give him everything I can. I want him to play with his big sister. Wrestle with his daddy. Talk and grow and learn and be whatever he wants to be and know that he can do anything in this world for so much good. I want him here safe. I am very sad I am missing out on Christmas in Texas this year and not getting to see my family all together this year. It has been so so long since we have all been together...I am going to miss it and it probably won't happen again for another 2 yrs at least. But, I finally had to admit something to myself the other day that for some reason I haven't even taken two seconds to really think about until this experience. I have been given such a beautiful and wonderful gift and responsibility from my Heavenly Father and I need to take care of this precious gift and do all that I can to make sure he is ok. I am so glad I have a family who understands and wants to help me in all that they can. A husband who helps and supports so much. A beautiful daughter who isn't too much trouble for me to handle and listens fairly well to her mommy. It could be a lot worse of a situation and I need to realize that. I need to stop saying it's not fair...and I will. Besides, I get to have Brett and Adalie here with me for Christmas. We are going to make some fun family Christmas memories this year and it is still going to be the best Christmas ever. Thank you everyone for your sweet words and shared moments. It really is a beautiful Holiday season and there is so so much to be happy about!!